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ETA: For a Thank You post and a way to keep a eye on Rivers's progress, go HERE! (http://flawed-karma.livejournal.com/216851.html)

I very rarely do this for anyone, let alone myself.

You all know I am disabled and River is my service dog . I depend on her for my life, for my freedom.

However, she needs surgery. Quickly. She has something called an Aurula Hemotoma. In other words, a bunch of blood vessels in her ear flap popped and it's swollen to the size of a small lemon.

Needless to say, like the rest of the free world, we're in dire financial straights. Her surgery will cost betweenn 225. and 300.

I don't have it. My credit cards are maxed out. I can scrape together about 175.00 by scrimping on some of my meds, but then there's the other 125.00 (and up) for the remaining cost or surgery, medications, etc.

If left unattended, this could spread to her auditory canal and make her go deaf.

Please. I hate to ask, I feel so useless for asking, by can anyone help? A dollar, two dollars.. I swear for every dollar I get, I will do a random act of goodness and kindness to pay you back, or pay you as money issues clear up.

Normally this wouldn't be an issue, but I have surgery on Thursday  and the copay for that is 500.00. I've been waiting 4 months to afford the co-pay, so you can see where I am.

Please, please help me keep my life normal and help me get River's surgery.

A dollar can make a huge difference, please. If I could, I would get on my knees and beg. But I -NEED- River in my life, I can't use her if she goes deaf in one ear. Please. I'm crying as I write this. I have asked you all for so much over the years. Friendship, encouragement,and now money. I'm sorry, I don't know what else to do. And there's no time to try and find groups that donate goods and services or medical care for service dogs. I can't emphasize how important this is. She could go deaf, the ear may turn to gangrene.

Please, help us. Help her.

ETA: I just spoke to the Vet. They don't offer discounts to anyone except Senior Citizens. And the total of the surgery has gone up, nearly doubling by the time they add in the mandatory rabies shot, a compete blood panel, a heartworm tests and other required pre-surgical testing, etc.

Now the total is now 410.00 with tax. it's a terrifying. I can't afford it. I'm so damn scared I'll lose hr as a working dog.

THANK YOU!!! All of you wonderful people. I now have 412.00 coming directly to my checking account. This covers EVERY THING she needs. Anything after that we can afford. I am near tears. No, scratch that. I AM crying. Thank you, all of you. i am stunned. River can have her surgery and I don't have to worry about a thing. Thank you all!

I promise the next time I see a post for someone in need on LJ, I'll send in what I can.

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ETA 3: The vet said the price could change based on what they find. So it could go up. It never goes down. Dammit, I was so excited..





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Date: 2012-09-10 05:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dungeonwriter.livejournal.com
Hugs, sending what I can!

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Hugs! I'm crying so much at your generosity. I swear on all I hold Holy I will do 2 random acts of kindness or goodness every day for a full year.

Thank you, so much. Thank you. Hugs! I have surgery Thursday, and River needs to be ready when I need her. I can't imagine trying to recover without her.

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dungeonwriter.livejournal.com
Just get well, that is what matters to me!

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you, I will I'm writing down each donor and amount and will try to make something for them in return.

But since you're relatively close, once I pay everyone back, I'll meet you in Manhattan and take you to Ben's for dinner. <3

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dungeonwriter.livejournal.com
Sounds like a plan!

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Date: 2012-09-10 07:01 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] vae
Sent what I can, I'm sorry it's not more. Hope you get what you need for both of you.

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Date: 2012-09-10 08:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you, Vae. Anything helps, any amount at all. I'm so grateful. *hugs*

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Date: 2012-09-10 10:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] onlyonechoice.livejournal.com
Also donated to the cause. *hugs* Best wishes for a smooth recovery for everyone.

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Date: 2012-09-10 11:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you so much. I found some old, unused still in packet insulin needles. Not the pre-loaded kind, either. And just spent the last hour slow coaxing 600 mL of blood from the Hematoma.

And you guessed it, it's filling right back up. She seems more comfortable though so i'm taking that as a win until we get to see the vet.

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Date: 2012-09-10 11:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] onlyonechoice.livejournal.com
I boosted the signal to my Facebook too - hopefully some of my friends can help with the funds as well. *hugs*

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Date: 2012-09-10 11:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thanks, let me unlock it so the folks can see it.

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Date: 2012-09-10 11:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ruric.livejournal.com
I hope to send a little something later today - a bit pushed myself at the moment but only short term!

Would you be willing to unlock this post so [livejournal.com profile] copperbadge can lik to it from his Radio Free Monday posts?

He has a great system for his wide readership to (a) request help for themselves or friends and (b) offer help when needed.

I'd already asked him to link but he's pointed out the post is flocked. I'm sure people would want to help out.

*hugs*

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Date: 2012-09-10 11:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you so much..yes, I'll unlock it. Thank you! *hugs* People can be so kind. I'm just terrified of losing her as an SD over this.

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Date: 2012-09-10 12:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ruric.livejournal.com
I'm getting a refund of so cash owed me either this afternoon or in the next couple of days. As soon as that comes in I can bounce you a contribution.

I completely get how worried you must be and hopefully we can get you closer to the target fast!

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Date: 2012-09-10 12:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you. I've gotten so many supportive notes and messages and even apologies that they can't afford to send money. But they are praying for us and that means so much, too.

Thank you for this. Even if people send prayers, it's so kind of them and helps me cope when everything seems so bleak.

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
I'm more terrified than worried. River is all I have standing (literally) between me and a wheelchair. If she loses her hearing, even partially? I'm housebound again.

No trips out to shop, or the movies, or to see a show in NYC.

My entire independence rests in her four paws. And if she has partial deafness, she'll be unfit to work and retired with Brandy, to lounge about and live a pampered life.

Then I'll be stuck home while waiting for the right service dog prospect to come along 6 years for her.

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Date: 2012-09-10 12:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bakaknight.livejournal.com
Here via Copperbadge.

Have sent you money, and I hope it helps her.

River looks very sweet. I'm sure she'll be okay. Perhaps the vet might be willing to give a discount for a service dog, or a payment plan, under the circumstances.

Best of luck.

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Date: 2012-09-10 12:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you so, so much. I'll try to pay you back eventually. Or if I can't, I'll do a minimum of 2 good deeds in thanks for your generosity.

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Date: 2012-09-10 12:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bakaknight.livejournal.com
No payment. Of any sort. Unless it's the kind of payment that comes in the form of pictures of the stitches on the doggy's ear and an exclamation of 'the vet's taking these off tomorrow, River's going to be okay!'

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Date: 2012-09-10 01:11 pm (UTC)

Call for help

Date: 2012-09-10 03:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] livejournal.livejournal.com
User [livejournal.com profile] ruric referenced to your post from Call for help (http://ruric.livejournal.com/543794.html) saying: [...] net land would not go amiss. She has a post here with more specifics and a paypal donate button [...]

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Date: 2012-09-10 04:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rhade-rad.livejournal.com
Here through [personal profile] ruric and have added to the fund. You don't have to do anything for me as like [personal profile] ruric I never wish to see an animal suffer. A friend of mine, with Parkinsons, has a support dog so I know how vital they are.

If you do feel you need to do something in return then perhaps something for your local animal shelter?

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
River sells belly rubs at various community events, and we give all monies made to the local shelter. Or we use it to buy the things on their wish list.

In the 5 years we've been doing this, we've raised roughly 4000.00 for charities. From Hospice Pet Programs to starting a Read To A Dog Program for kids at risk in the local library.

Any extra money left over after her last vet visit will go towards establishing an "Angel Fund" at the vet's to help people who don't have the money for treatment or medication.

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Date: 2012-09-10 04:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bulleteyes.livejournal.com
Okay, Darlin'. Ruric is good people and I saw her signal boost.

I've a friend who depends on her Service Dog and I've seen the impact it makes on her life.

Sending money and prayers and my pleasure to do so.

Would you be willing to add me as a friend? It would be nice to see how the operation goes :)

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Added, and thank you!

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Date: 2012-09-10 05:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chaosvizier.livejournal.com
Dear Diary,

Today I was nice to an Internet Person. Well, I guess to their dog. But, you know, niceness in general. Sure, some people think that Internet People aren't Real People, but that can't be right, because I'm a Real People, and yet I'm an Internet People too. Or am I just stuck in a paradox again? Hmm.

Anyway, if there is a Deity Of Internet Karma out there, please let that make up for the orphanage I burned down last week. I mean, those orphans were totally stealing food from hungry kittens and deserved it, but the press made me out to be the villain in the story, and that hurt my feelings.

Cheeky orphans.

Signed, [livejournal.com profile] chaosvizier

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Date: 2012-09-10 06:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Thank you, Hans. Next pub crawl, I owe you a pint or six.

Presuming I have a job and am not on happy pills that preclude me from crawling along.

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Date: 2012-09-10 06:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chaosvizier.livejournal.com
River's drinks are on me! ;-) "Who's a good drunken service puppy? YOU ARE!"

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Date: 2012-09-10 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
LOL, she's the designated walker. Just water for her, with a twist

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Date: 2012-09-10 10:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amethyst-hunter.livejournal.com
I'm so glad you were able to raise the money! Doggie = MUST HAVE. :)

If you like though, I'd still be glad to make a signal-boosting post for extra funds, in case any surprise expenses pop up for the near future...

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Date: 2012-09-11 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
Please do. The vet said the cost could go up based on what they find under the flap. (Infection, burst vessels that need cauterizing..)

So much for thinking I didn't have a thing to worry about.

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Date: 2012-09-11 10:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amethyst-hunter.livejournal.com
Consider it done.

*offers hugs from me and my kitties to you and River*

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Date: 2012-09-11 02:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] angst-queen-98.livejournal.com
You are a friend of onlyonechoice who is quite dear to me! I saw her post and had to run over to see what was up. I am partially blind and grew up with a blind father. While he himself didn't have a service dog, a lot of his friends did. As a dog lover and maybe future service dog guardian in the future, I'm going to donate for your River's surgery. You owe me NOTHING. Pay it forward to someone else in need, is all I ask. You both are in my thoughts and prayers! *hugs*

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Date: 2012-09-11 11:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flawed-karma.livejournal.com
I am so incredibly touched and grateful for your understanding. I had turned 18 on December 3rd, 1991 and was a top notch horseback rider in hunter, jumper and equitation classes. But I was getting bored with those and had turned to Dressage for a new sport.

However, I still taught hunter/jumper/equitation. And of course, it was my last day, my last horse for hunters. I was finishing out my contract. Bonanza was a difficult horse, and he dumped his poor owner more often than not.

He stood 6 foot even at the top of his shoulders (withers)and his owner was a tiny girl of 4'8" tall. Plus she weighed 90 lbs if she was soaking wet. So he ruthlessly advantage of her, dumping her for what seemed to be his own amusement.

After he tossed C. off for the last time (she was always unhurt, my little duckling)I climbed on. I was 5'8" tall, and weighed about 130 lbs. It was a big change from tiny C.

So I ran him through is paces and we'd laid in new peat and shavings that morning for winter. Even the indoor arena dirt can freeze without heat, so ground began the extra bounce it took on shortly after as dirt, shavings, and peat were mixed into a lovely loam.

A friend of mine built a few jumps for us and I took Bo around, and he fussed, refused a few times. I took him around again and he reared at a jump, then fell backwards and landed on top of me. He struggled to get up several times, pushing me deeper and deeper into the arena flooring. I heard some cracks, everything from mid waist went numb. Bo finally got up. He was shaken, but fine.

I went to the hospital on a back board, neck brace, all of it. I broke L4, L5, S1, S2. I damaged nerves, I compressed my spine. It was only b the grace of God my spinal cord was lightly damaged and not broken or severed.

I was told I'd never walk again, but I did. Three times I've been told I'd never walk, and I keep out of the chair. How?

River is a mobility assistance dog. She pushes and pulls and balances me out. If I lose her, I lose the life I've fought tooth and nail to make and keep for myself.

That's why I'm on LJ, begging for money from strangers. I can't go back into that wheelchair again or I won't come out of it.

Now, maybe you can understand why I am so desperately begging for change, a dollar, a donation of any size